I am sorry, to myself, for not posting more here. Maybe I have not been in the best of spaces. It hasn’t easy settling in, I have felt very alone with a lot of things, but know that is mostly in my inner world.

So its probably right to be externalising my world a little more.

I am not sure how many of you know this, but I trained to be a priest, but left after I meeting the man of my life (awwww and youre still that even after 13 years hehehe) as they made it clear there was no place for me. I suspect I had a crisis of faith, a beautifully patronising term used by those who use systematic shame to control the masses.

Anyway, why am I telling you this. Well, simply because while I no longer adhere to any form of institutionalised religion, there are still elements of my life and experience that deeply spiritual reality. There are moments when I am touched by the intense delight or darkness of human experience, or when I see or hear things that have a deeper meaning that the day to day reality of what I do.

Today was one of those. I read something that fits strongly within my reconstructed queer theology of self and other, the interwoven wisdom theology of hebel, the transitory or ephemeral experience of now. I just thought I would share it with you:

“I have come to believe that the whole world is an enigma, a harmless enigma that is made terrible by our own mad attempt to interpret it as though it had an underlying truth.” - Umberto Eco

It made me sad and delighted at the same time. Sad when I see a world engulfed in hating and warring against each other in the name of idealised truth, righteousness or god. Delighted, because the world around us is such a lovely enigma to walk amongst, to be with, to experience.

Categories: New York
3 Comments »